Podcast Queen

Hello everyone! As part of my Adulting 101 education, I have been watching self-help, diet & fitness, inspirational, and comedy podcasts. One quote I heard during a podcast has created a lot of reflection. The podcaster said, “You’re not living life; you’re living the story of your life.” Basically he was saying that your life is built ont the stories you tell yourself. If you want to change your life, change the story you tell yourself about it. Unconsciously, for the past year, I have been re-writing the story I’ve been telling myself, and the confronting lies I’ve told myself in my old story. I see the world and my past in a different way now. I used to think I was empathic. However, I actually have no clue what people are really thinking or feeling unless I ask them or they tell me. People’s body language can lie as easily as their words. For example, I am known for my resting “b” face. If I’m not smiling, people think I’m pissed about something, when actually I’m just lost in my thoughts. I make the same assumption if people have a serious face. I assume something is wrong. However, when I ask them, that is not the case. They, too, were just lost in their own thoughts. I used to think that certain people hate me or I was too much for some people. However, their world doesn’t revolve around me and if I am too much, they have the right to go find less. I’m learning to listen more and be curious about people and life. I am rewriting my story from the weird, awkward girl, who no one likes to the curious and open girl, who will attract like minded people. I’m leaning on joy and happiness. Life is too short to focus your energy anything else.