In looking at the many quotes I have written down these past 6 months, I have decided to write about the one on pain and suffering – “Pain is eventual; suffering is optional.”
I’m not going to lie, when I look back on my life, I remember all the times I was hurt and in pain with vivid clarity. The times I was happy, are like vague shapeless memories that seem more of a dream than real life. In the past year, I have been trying to switch that. To record my happy moments in IMAX and my bad moments in AM radio. In life, you always are going to experience pain. I’m not saying not to deal with the pain or ignore it. I am learning you have to deal with what hurts you, ASAP, to prevent the habit I had created. I ruminated and held on to the pain until it blackened my spirit and left me in darkness – which was my own suffering, my own hell. The person that was the source of my pain had moved on with their life and forgotten about the wreckage they had caused in mine. Or even worse, they hadn’t realized they caused the pain because I had refused to confront them to tell them I was hurt. I had been making suffering eventual when I experienced pain because I wouldn’t let it go. I am slowly learning to let go of the years of pain and suffering I allowed myself to carry and releasing them for the flowers that were blossoming around me that in my hell I had refused to see. My goal now is to “remember to love” and also remember the love that I had been blind to for so many years. Til next month, Peace.
R.R. Peace, Author and Poet 