Hello everyone! I’m your host, Peace. Hopefully, this will not be a reoccurring feature of Sparrow’s Playground. Today’s lesson is about the adolescent adult behaving badly, LOL! One of my new mottos is “I don’t have to be wrong for you to be right.” I heard the quote a long time ago from the Rabbi author who wrote the book with the same title on the SirrusXM Radio show, “The Busted Halo.” I thought that the quote was one of the wisest things I had ever heard. Too bad I never took it to heart until this weekend.
I will spare you the grimy details, but suffice to say, a very tired, stressed, over-extended, under-medicated, and cranky Peace, stopped into a local store and proceeded to make an a** out of herself, believing she was in the right – however, she was not. She ended up looking like the stereotypical angry black woman. I apologize to the customers who witnessed the behavior and the staff of the business, who could have given me “the business,” but they treated me with such patience and grace – which I didn’t deserve – and they did not call me out when I realized I was in the wrong. Because of that, I am giving them a shoutout because I do like the store and it’s set up and since it is a new buisness, I want to see it thrive – so shout out to Beauty Town in Catonsville, Maryland! Please everyone check out this new small business!
I think everyone, to some extent, has problems admitting when they are wrong. I guess people want to save face and not admit that they can be human too. With all the self-work I am doing, I realize that I’m getting too old to wait until the stars align before I start admitting when I am wrong. In the past, when I did admit when I was wrong, I went down a self-destructive path of beating myself up, even though the person had put my bad behavior in the past. This time, by owning my mistake quicker, I can give myself grace. I was not in a good place this weekend. I see my mistake, and I will do better. With this very public and humbling post, I am putting the incident in the back burner and moving forward with my life. Because, as I know of myself from the past, I tend to care about things and dwell on things more than other people. It’s time to let go and let God.
A podcaster said last month, “Balance follows the path of least resistance.” Since I am trying to balance my sometimes crazy headspace, the best thing I can do is to stop fighting to keep my bad habits and negative programming. I have to just let God do the work he has started in me. When I see Evil Peace cropping up, I have to stop, take a breath, take a few seconds to calm down – AND THEN, speak. LOL! As another podcaster said, “You have to choose not to allow things you cannot control, control you.” However, you can control yourself and your behavior. Once you do that, amazing things start happening. You start getting more curious about people and the world around you. Soon, your life isn’t just all about you, but wanting to be a loving influence in the world.
So when you feel your evil persona creeping out to attack possibly innocent people – stop and ask yourself – Is this really the hill I want to die on, or will my energy be more useful spent elsewhere? Until next time!
R.R. Peace, Author and Poet 